[Source: Allison Gibbs]
Why is this pain in my chest?
Why do my dreams fulfill my spirit more than my waking days?
What is purpose and how do we find it?
Since I was young I was told by others that I was destined for greatness.
Well, where is it?
Where is the abundance?
Why is my heart bursting with love, good intentions, and this beautifully delicious scent?
But yet, it cant escape my lips or play out in daily life?
Why am I surrounded by millions of people and yet feel so alone?
Moved by this sky, this life, this view....
but feel as though I experience it alone?
I am often asked, "how can you have 4000 friends and still feel lonely?"
Sometimes our hearts and our heads disagree.
Sometimes life throws us curveballs, surprising us--- even if we have asked for it all along.
Life is opening up to me, sometimes as a casket and sometimes as a cocoon
Its full of unknowns.
I created the intent that I am ready and open to receive.
Then the Tower came.
And though right now is my floating stage, I still can't swim.
How does one keep their brains away from their hearts?
How do you keep the pain from seeping into the muscles?
How does one remain positive when you awaken to the idea that you really don't Know what you want?
I guess its similar to when someone tells you they don't want you...
Maybe that is when, yeah loneliness will come, and sure- you may feel alone.
But that is the lower mind talking.
That is the fear coming out.
And maybe while one is seeing that loneliness as a somber event, it is truly a time to open and take that time to sit with yourself.
close your eyes and see what your heart wants.
The longest hardest part of my life has begun.
Forget the last year, forget relationship status, forget illness, forget the basics that would jar life...
Forcing oneself to take an introspection is the hardest thing one can do.
How do we accept this with love?
How can we help one another not to feel loneliness?
Just thoughts, any help would be appreciated.